All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop....

Actually it doesn't rain now.
In a very sunny afternoon like today, I don't wanna do anything.
If only there would be a heavy rain immediately... "All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop".... That sound maybe can fill my empty sensation. 
A 5-day holiday is coming. What should I do? I have alots plans, so, I don't know which should do first. Oh ghosh, that's a great suffering. If only... I would have enough money, I could travel to somewhere, Con Dao, Phu Quoc or even Singapore. If only... I would not have to teach piano, I could go home for a week. If only I would not need to study English, or computing, I could feel free and enjoy that 5-day... Miss home, the little family with mom, sister and little niece. And my dog too. Hix. 
My life seems a long successions of "if-only". Why? I know it isn't good at all, but sometimes I feel I lose my sense of directions. For example, right now. 
This morning I study PR. Again, I ask myself: What will I become? Should I pursue Marketing, PR or ...? FIR, what did you teach me? 
Saigon, what did you teach me?
All I need to hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop...